Things that have been on my mind..
Today, I decided that after my classes ended for the day at 4:45 I would not do any work. None. I would just eat dinner, take a nap, read, watch tv, sit in bed, whatever. No work—no studying, problem sets, essays, grant proposals, lab reports. I stayed cooped up in my room as it became 8pm, then 10pm, and now 11:30pm; all the while I was antsy with all this leisure time…with just time to do nothing and not be consumed by what new deadline was coming up. I was so used to this almost crushing feeling that I’m running out of time. Hm..how sad the daily grind of work can become and how easily I fall into this neverending cycle of deadlines. What is the reason for my work? my diligence? my stress? my packed schedules? Who am I doing this for? Where am I finding my rest amidst this chaos? Hm..things I need to wrestle with and finally confront.
Things that have been on my mind (and that I’ve wanted on my mind to explore further):
1) living out the gospel
2) not only knowing why God allows suffering for myself but being able to explain this to non-Christians
3) predestination
4) joy
5) identifying apathy/indifference in my heart
Good night! $0.88 taco bell crunchwrap supremes here I come!
edit) sad that my title had a typo in it…oh tumblr :(
